Saturday, June 14, 2008

Kali Wants to Go Home

I will be calling the vet and trying to make an appointment to assist my lovely lady to the Bridge today. She's developed a tick. Her head jerks back and forth. She's wobbly on her feet. She's always been a very dignified cat. I owe her to allow her to go before she loses any more of her cat sensibilities. 

I forced some Super Charger into her mouth yesterday. And then she actually drank some salmon juice and ate a tiny bit of the fish. I was praising her like crazy and she was trying to please me. Still it's not enough to change my decision.

I'll come back and let you all know if I get the appointment with the vet. 

Thank you everyone for all of your support.
Love, Lynn

4:00 pm PST is the time she will be meeting with the vet. I keep reminding myself that she deserves this. I need to remember it's suppose to be about what's best for HER not me. For me, I could keep her around until the last possible moment...

She purrs as soon as she sees me and allows me to pet her entire body, something I never was allowed to do before. I was limited to petting just her head before. She continues to answer all my comments with a meow, just has she's always done before. That's my girl, always needing to get the last word in. 

Kali does have a sister at the Bridge that will help her cross. I lost Katie about 10 years ago to kidney failure. She was only 4 years old at the time. She gave me no warning. Kali used to bully her something awful because Kali couldn't stand to share me with the little one. That was a long time ago. Katie never did hold a grudge. I bet she'll show her the ropes. And Lilly's mother Peggy has written that Lilly. who just recently crossed, will also be there for my girl. (Oh gosh, and now Castle writes that Stormie will be there too!) This means a lot simply because I cannot go with her to make sure she's safe and happy and not hissing at others. I guess this is where faith is suppose to take over. I need to surrender my baby in so many different ways. I'm not good at surrendering. I'm good at holding onto things...tightly.

Ok, well I'm going to go enjoy some last moments. Again, thank you. Please pray for me to be strong. If you're not into prayer maybe you could imagine thoughts of me being a strong resilient cat owner, who can handle this, no problem. Thank you.


Cat-a-holic, Lilly and Laila said...

Momma is crying her eyes and heart out for you. You are doing the right thing for Kali.

Do not be afraid, dear Kali, Lilly is waiting up there for you. Not to worry, we will be here to comfort your Momma.

We will light a candle for you tonight.

Love and {{{HUGS}}},

ML said...

Lynn, sweetie, they will try to stay with you as long as possible just to please you, just so you won't hurt. The same thing happened with my Bear. I clung to her and didn't want to let her go. Suddenly I realized that she was suffering so I wouldn't have to. Tell Kali it is okay for her to go, that you will miss her terribly, but if it is time for her to go home, then go.
I said that to Bear and she died in my arms within minutes. (Of course, I tried to take it back...) Better us to suffer their loss than them to keep hurting.
Love, ML

Castle said...

Oh dearest Kali...and Kali's mum, having so recently lost Storm we totally understand how you are doing the best thing for Kali. Storm will be waiting and will take Kali by the paw and show Kali around...

Our hearts are with you...bless you's such a tough decision to make but you know in your heart it is best. The sadness is immense but it is worth the pain for all the beautiful time you had together...

Love from Castle (Storm's Brother)

Castle said...


x 3 trillion


Astrid, Kashim & Othello said...

our eyes are leaking and our heart is with you.
ML said all we could have said so we just send our comforting hugs!

purrrs K&O and Momma Astrid

ML said...

********** HUGS ********
(((((((((( HUGS )))))))))
{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}
~~~~~~~~~~ HUGS ~~~~~~~~~

Jan's Funny Farm said...

Oh, Lynn, We are so sad for you. We know you love Kali and want what is best for her, so you will make the best decision for her circumstances.

purrs and tail wags
and {{{{hugs}}}}

Karl & Ruis said...

Our hearts are very heavy these days. But Kali, just as Stormie, deserves to continue her journey at the most beautiful place there is for her.

Goodbye sweet Kali! We'll meet again...

You are all in our thoughts and purrs!

Love and (((((( HUGS )))))
Karl & Ruis

The Meowers from Missouri said...

ML has said it all.

she'll be in good company, dear. they'll meow her home safely. we haf just lit a candle here by the puter an' purred an' purrrayed among ourselfs. mom's all tearfaced an' achy in her heart for youse guys.

(((((hugs))))) an' kittykisses--

nels, ed, nitro, an' xing lu

Maggy & Zoey said...

Lynn, as hard as this will be, you know in your heart that it is for the best. We all loved Kali, loved reading about her, seeing her photographs... she filled your home and heart with her love for many many years... you were blessed to know her, and she to know you... the rainbows will caress her shoulders. Prayers and love to all of you, Maggy and Zoey and Ann.

HotMBC said...

We'll lite a candle for Kali's trip to tha Bridge. She knows it's her time and that is ok. Just awful sad for us. We'll send her lots of purrs to carry her on her way and lots of purrs for you to be strong and not be sad too long.

Victor Tabbycat said...

We's sorry Kali has to leaf, but it sounds like it's bestest fur her. She'll be young an strong again an acourse, Bonnie will be there to meet her, too. She'll know all bout what's there fur hissy kitties!

Allow yourself to grieve! You've been together many years and she's NOT "just a cat". HUGS and purrs!

HotMBC said...

Pee Ess. Gree says that whoever is at her wedding shower today still at Chatzy will have a moment of silence for Kali's journey and she will light a candle for her there.

Zippy, Sadie and Speedy said...

They do know when it's "time" but will hang on and suffer so we don't. We know she'll be happy, healthy and surrounded by frends once she get there. Just remember...she'll have no more pain and you'll have beyootiful memories. We'll purr and purray for you and Kali (((hugs)))

Mo said...

Sending love and {{{HUGS}}}.

Not The Mama
and the purries from
Purrchance To Dream

Captain Jack and Sir Dante said...

You've just made the hardest decision a pet guardian ever has to make. We are so so sorry and our eyes are leaking for you. Do not worry, we have lots of Those Who Came Before who we will ask to be there to meet Kali and make sure she is okay. We are sending you long distance hugs and purrs. You are doing the right thing, no matter how hard it is! HUGS!

Captain Jack and Sir Dante said...

And remeber this is not "Goodbye", it's just "See Ya Later!"

Cats~Goats~Quotes said...

We will keep you and Kali in our prayers today. It is so hard to do what we know is best. ((Hugs))
We would like to share this with you. Someone left it for us when Georgia went to The Bridge last year.

And God asked the gentle feline spirit,
Are you ready to come home?
Oh, yes, quite so replied the precious soul
And as a cat , I am most able to decide
anything for myself.
Are you coming then , asked God?
Soon, replied the whiskered Angel,
But I must come slowly
For my human friends are troubled
For you see they need me , quite certainly
But don't they understand, asked God?
That you will never leave them?
That your souls are intertwined for all eternity?
That nothing is created or destroyed?
It just is...forever and ever and ever.
Eventually they will understand,
replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am...forever and ever and ever.

Author unknown

ML said...

Me again, Lynn, I'm just like you about hanging on.
Bear had not been eating for two days, they were force-feeding her, giving her IV fluids, keeping her going with drugs. She stayed at the vet hospital during the day and I'd take her home at night.
She'd perk up when I got her, try weakly to lick me, etc. but mostly she would lie there, straining to catch her breath and wheezing.
I was holding her, looking at the remnants of food caked on her beautiful snout, probably where the syringing had left it, and it was then I realized she would do anything for me, even put up with all of that.
That was when I told her to go if she needed to, that I would somehow make it without her.
Bear will be there with all the others to greet Kali, there will be a crowd, for sure. And they will be there to greet us someday.

Cheysuli and gemini said...

We are all purring for you at this time. The decision is always harder for us than for them.

As I said for Storm, most all of us have been there at one time or another. Please know that you are not alone.

Lux said...

There will be so many friends waiting for Kali at the Bridge. I'm sorry I haven't visited in so long; I must have lost your address when I changed my blogroll. :(

Many hugs to you at this difficult time.

DK & The Fluffies said...

Sending purrs and nose bumps

Boy said...

Mine Mummy is pwaying and pwaying for you and me and That Thing are puwwing non stop for you.
I'm sure that is the way Kawi would wike to go. Dignified. Don't wowwy, there are definitewy wots of fwiends over at the other side of the Bwidge to make Kawi feel at home.

Asta said...

Be stwong Kali's's the hawdest thing to do to let go..but Kali will be welcomed by so's the last loving thing ouw Mommi's can do fow us to let us be pain fwee again..go softly deaw Kali
smoochie kisses

Alasandra said...

I will be praying for you, it's very hard to let them go even when we know it's the best thing for them. ~Alasandra

We will be purring for everyone. ~Socks, MoMo, Scylla, Charybdis & Charlotte

The Meezers said...

oh dear, our mommy is crying too. It's so hard to go through this. Trixie developed the same tick right before she ran off to the Bridge. Trixie and Norton and our One Who Came Before will be there with Lilly and Storm and every other cat to greet her and show her around.
Mommy says that you are very brave and strong and Kali knows how very much you love her.
We just cannot stand to say good bye to yet another friend, so we will just say "until we meet at the Bridge...."

The Meezers said...


Turkey Cats said...

We are purring very hard for you today. Our sisfur, Rita will meet Kali at the bridge too. She was only a year and a half when we discovered she was sick and she only lasted a couple more weeks.


Reggie, Abby and Famiy

Princess said...

You are doing the right thing. Kali will be well received at the bridge.

I will pray for all of you.

Sabrina, Sam and Simon said...

Lynn, we are purraying for you that you will be able to make it throught this very sad and trying time of leaving your Sweet Kali go to the Bridge. Our Momma went throught the same thing with our brother Max when he had cancer, but she knew he needed to be set free from his suffering. You are doing the right thing for Kali. Our Max will be there to greet her when she arrives home at the Bridge ...
Hugs, purrs and headbutts,
Sabrina, Sam. Simon and Momma Jan

Grr, Midnight & Cocoa said...

we're all sending love, hugs and purrs.

Astrid, Kashim & Othello said...

Paul our angel brofur at the bridge will be there to to welcome hers.

((((sending hugs again))))

DaisyMae Maus said...

Leaky eyes here, too ... Dignity is so important and a brave decision has been made. Godspeed, Kali.

Samantha & Tigger said...

We are purrrng for Kali and you and your family! We will light a candle and our sweet Angelcat Ariel will be there to greet her! Purrrrrrrrrr, purrrrrrrs, ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))),
Your FL furiends,

Daisy said...

My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Sometimes doing the right thing is the very hardest thing. Kali is ready to rest. I wish her a peaceful journey. Many {{{hugs}}} to you.

Skeeter, LC, and Ayla said...

Mom Lynn, we hope our Big Thing is as brave and kind as you are when our times come...

Fare well, Kali! See you over the Bridge one day...


Skeeter and LC

Mickey said...

Purrs & Headbutts to you.
Kali had a nice ,long life because of you .


THE ZOO said...

we are so sorry to hear about Kali. {{{{{{{hugggggggs to you and your family}}}}}}}

Forty Paws said...

We're sending many thoughts and prayers to you and Kali as she makes her way home. Many {{{hugs}}} to you and all of your babies during this time.

Luf, Us

Parker said...

Dear Miss Lynn,
The kindest thing to do is sometimes the hardest thing to do. My Mommy is leaking so hard for you and your Kali that I need to go and give her some purrs...
Godspeed to your baby, we will light a candle this evening to help Kali on her journey.
All of our love and purrs on this most difficult day.

Team Tabby said...

We are sending many purrs and prayers and also hugs.

Mindy & Moe

Tiger Lily said...

Oh Lynn, we know this is so very hard for you to do even when you know it is the right thing for your precious girl. Kali knows she has been loved and that she will always have her place in your heart.

We will purray for you to be strong and to feel the comfort you need through this difficult time.

prrrrrrrrrrs and gentle tail wags and {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}},
Jemima, Zeke, Sushi, Tiger Lily and Ruckus
Mom RC

Alexi said...

We are leaking over Kali. We think you are doing what is best for Kali. Please know we are purring and purrayng for you and your family.
Love and {{{HUGS}}}!
Alexi, and the rest of the Krasota Castle cats.

MISS PEACH >(^.^) said...

Dearest Lynn and Tyler!
I pray for the Lord to hold you all up today. It will be a hard time to get through. It always is as we love our kitties so very deeply. Kali knows just how much you do...she wants to please you and that is her gift to give her the final gift of love by letting her be free with her dignaty held high.
Take comfort knowing how many of love and care for you at this sad time.
I will light the candle tonight for you...Love your Miss Peach

Tara said...

I will be thinking of you at 4:00 today, and will have a moment of silence. Mom helped the one who came before, Baby, to the bridge. Even though she knew it was the right thing to do, it was the hardest thing she had ever done.

Love, purrs and {{{HUGS}}}


The Lee County Clowder said...

Sending comforting purrrrss and soft, gentle headbuttss to all.


topcatrules said...

We send you love and hugs and purrs - from the topcatrules girls.

Cat-a-holic, Lilly and Laila said...

We will light our candle at 4:00 pm PDT. Lynn, you will find the strength and courage to be strong for your girl and be able to let her go.

{{{HUGS}}}, love and prayers.

Peggy and Laila

Camie's Kitties said...

We are so sorry that you are having to do this so soon. We know how hard this is. We will be thinking of you in an hour. Kali will be greeted by so many of her blogging friends who are over there already. It is always hardest on the ones they leave behind.

Tiki, Tavi, Cody and Camie (and our mom- Tara (not the cat))

Eric and Flynn said...

We are so sorry that Kali has to go to The Bridge. You know you have made the right decision though to allow her to go with dignity.We are all praying for her and you and your family.
Purrrrrrs and (((((((((hugs))))))))))
Mum said she will email in a day or two.

Kelly Cat said...

It's sad that any human has to make that decision about someone they love. We're sorry to hear the sad news about Kali. Take good care of yourself... we'll be thinking of you.

China Cat said...

All of our eyes are leaking here for Kali. I'm sending over soft purrs and will light a candle for her.

Purrrrrrrrs, China Cat

Willow said...

I'm so sorry that Kali is going to the Bridge. I am purring very softly by the candle that we lit for her. China Cat and I are also sending over sweet purrs for your whole family at this sad time.

Purrrrrrrrs, Willow

Max said...

I am so very very sorry. I did not really know Kali but my heart still hurts for you.

The Taylor CatSSSSS said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear about Kali. It makes me so sad to lose another friend. I know you are doing the best thing for your baby. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Love, Deb and The Taylor CatSSSSS

Angus Mhor said...

Lynn and Tyler, our purrs and hugs are for you, today, as Kali crosses over the Bridge..she'll meet the Cat-Who-Came-Before..Whiskers, who went over 3 years ago, and will encourage her and keep her company until she learns her way.

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